Just copy and paste some script work over.
Maybe you know where did I copy from so it doesnt matter.

Btw Yng:
1)Pls~~Pretty pret pret~help me abt the JH thing first.;p
2)Aiya..I also know these agencies cant be counted on la.If can,I would have done so long ago lo.
Plus I know my own standards la.Hehe.
3)You dun have to spell out the baking over here,ya know.*shakes head*
Lol.
=}

Von told me something thru texting this afternoon.
She said that she told Andy if by 22(age) she and Andy still ok,they would get engaged.

Sounds romantic huh.
But I asked her this...
"How do you really feel about Andy now?"
(She has alot of other stories yet to be told,and I respect her by not telling everyone I know.)
She replied something as Andy being someone whom she feels comfortable ard with and has grown use to.

This is totally natural...Totally.

That leads me to 2 issues which are connected.

As my cursor would ask...Is love just a habit?
Someone whom you have grown use to...
Since when everything about each other is just regarded something you have grown use to?
Although it is totally natural.
The hugs,the kisses,the sensation of holding hands,the voice,the timings,the places for dates,each other hp and home no, etc..are all the things we are slowly accumstomed to.
It has become part and parcel of our lives.

But...if love is a habit,does it makes habit as love too?
Literally speaking,yes.
But..I dun really agree so.

For all i know,habit is something that is hard to kick but CAN be overwrite eventually.

Dont tell me there is no difference b/w the 2 coz there is.
Even a fine line is a gap.

I was on the phone with Irene just now.
She just came back from her "honey moon" to China with her significant other.
How blissful~

We talked about the infidelity world of the grown ups.
I really mean those adults,years senior than us.

You and I know that trust and respect for each other is really impt in a relationship.
But hearing so many,I dunno if I can really put down my guard and trust and love implicitly.

And often it is the married couples who have spend at least a decade of their lives together that the 'betrayal of love' demon is targeting on.

I mean...what is marraige to you?
What are the vows taken for?
Is there such thing as eternal love?
Who are those beautiful love songs written for?
You are still with me,becoz u still truely love me or it is just an habit that we are together so you are still with me?

I have asked Jason once that when 2 pple are together for long,izzit for love or habit.He didnt quite give me an answer,no he didn't.
I asked Von the same question too,she said she has no idea and is frustrated too.
I'm sure if I asked Yng,she wouldn't be able to gimme an ans too.

Even though there is no guarantee that we will be together,but occasionally I still dream of the day when you finally proposed to me.I smiled to myself.

What I didnt think of is years after marriage,would you still stay the same for me?

When your career takes off,will you still look at me the way that you did when you first saw me?

Would you take a look at other women,and choose to break all the vows taken?

This is a question not asking for ur answers coz as much I would love to believe in those answers,I am not sure if they are for keep.
Coz I know when those men make those vows,they never intend to break it either..of coz until they really do so.

Is marriage just a piece of paper?
Nothing is worth anything now?

Or really it doesnt even take until marriage for all these to happen.

Time do really wears off everything huh?
Yng must be sadly nodding her head now.

I am not sure if my parents really still love each other that much...as before..as once upon that time.But it is a fact that they are still living together and at least betrayal of love is not an issue here.

Of coz what I am said all above does not apply to men only,women too.We are all just the same.(except men being the majority)

I did something wrong just now but I didn't feel I am exactly wrong.
I gave him a not so encouraging msg.
I wonder how will it affects him..or maybe it dont.
I am just too insecure till the point that I dun really care.

All day long...I kept looking over to my phone every now and then.
I am just wishing for a msg to maybe tell me that u are awake,asks me how's my day etc..
But all I got is just a mms telling me to take care and u are off to work.


All night long...I keep looking over to my phone every now and then.
I am just wishing for a msg...be it of anything..during dinner break..during a short rest or toilet break?
I hold it till 11.30 when I tot you would knock off.
I am just wishing for a call.
You know I needed that.
But you told me that you would be working late and that you shall keep the magic words till when we need.

Well...
I breathe in hard to hold my tears or maybe now as I am typing all these,I drop a tear or two.

Maybe I am truely asking for too much.
So it is my fault?
I dunno..I really dont.

Those kinda msges makes me feel like a sit at home gal.Watching you go work and returning late.
Well..at least he did inform.

How empty I feel..really.

SO I really dunno how Yng takes it all along?
Maybe she is really too tired to make another step that seems useless?
forgive me for commenting coz I know I really have no right to anyway.
Sorry gal.



It's been a long time and each time we met I just tot it's ok.
But still this emptiness feeling didn't fail to hang ard in here.

My mind never stop at gg on to imagine for the undesirable outcomes.

Though I see him beside me physically,but why can't I feel so inside.
Like what I've said...since when he has stepped to the other side on this railway station.

No amount of those magic words can help coz it is just not about those words I care to hear.
Yes..I need those words but it is not something that I like to hear upon my request.

Love is not a dedication or call in request.

Lately I recalled alot of the past.
That..guy..who taught me how to love and let go someone I can't let go of..

I tot it's my fault.
I tot I think too much.
But you can't deny me from feeling what I am feeling.

I am scare that all of me and what I am doing is eventually something you will dislike next time.
I am scare that you just dont remember what I really needs or just forget or ..just dont wanna remember again.
I am scare that it is only years later that this relationship has to end.

I dun like to wait,dun like to waste time.
Thus I am disgusted at myself.Feels like a useless rug.

....
Even so come the day...even if it's not you...that my love is betray..
I will never let him see the day I cried for him again.

Starting all over again...
So that brings you and me back to the question.

Is love just a habit?
When those sparkles fade with time..do you still love me wholeheartedly or..really it is just a habit that we are together?